We went to Wendover with a group of my friends and found out the next month we were expecting. When we came home from Wendover, it was the week of Valentines and Eric and I went to Zales and I found this beautiful heart necklace that I just fell in love with, he ended up buying it for me and little did we know it would have soo much meaning in the end. Here is a picture of the necklace:
1/10 CT. T.W. Diamond Double Heart Pendant in 10K White Gold
My boys say the little heart inside is Caden. I wear this necklace every day and its now called "My Caden Necklace"
I continued to have monthly checkups with my OB and everything was going fine. I had pretty bad nausea and very sleepy. I noticed that this pregnancy, I kept catching myself thinking about miscarriage where I never had with Austin Mathew or Jaxon's pregnancy. I felt Caden move the last week he was alive I will always cherish those few movements I felt before he passed.
I realized I never elaborated on this after this post. ill explain what happen from start to finish.. pay no attention to the grammar, punctuation, etc.. this was all written out on my cell phone and i fwd it to my email so that i wouldn't have to write it out ever again..
I was 17 weeks and went in for my normal monthly checkup and doc couldn't find the heartbeat so he took me to another room to do an ultrasound.. I laid on the table and he scanned across my belly and as he scanned across, I saw my baby just lying there with no heartbeat he then did some measurements and found out baby stopped growing at 14 weeks so the baby died 3 weeks before we found out. Doc then took me back to the exam room and explained to me what options I have He told me because I was in my 2nd trimester, if I chose a D&C he couldn't promise he would get all the pieces of the baby. I chose to have a medically induced labor because I couldn't bring myself to do a D & C after what he said. So this was Monday June 15, 2009, 2 days later I decided to start taking the pill that starts the labor (Cytotec) I started the pill around noon and at about 7 pm that night the contractions started and never eased up. I toughed it out for a few hours while my hubby was coaching softball and then we went to the hospital around 10 pm we got checked in, Eric went home to get some things, Jeanie and Mom came to be with me, and just before Jeanie walked in, I accidentally dropped my cell phone in the toilet as it was flushing as if my week wasn't bad enough .. (Anyone that knows me, knows I'm addicted to my phone). Anyway, as soon as everyone was there my water broke and my friend Martha McCoy also came for a couple hours. The nurse kept checking me and checking to see where the baby was and at about 3:30am she told me I was dilated to about a 3 and ready to deliver the baby.. We all kinda lost it and so they gave us some time. We all gained our composure and I pushed like 3 times and there was
Caden at 340 am on June 18, 2009.. Everything was formed on the baby you could see the tongue, the nose, the ears, toes, fingers, collarbone, everything. It was soo sad. There was a huge sack of liquid on his head which is what he died from its called Hydrocephalus.
Caden was 1.6 oz and was 5" long we got to hold him (not skin to skin) the skin is soo fragile at that stage that you cannot touch it with your bare hands or it will break and tear and ooze so the Bereavement specialist wrapped him up in what I call his boxing robe cause that's what it looks like. She got molds of his hands and feet and took pictures of him and of Eric and I with him. We held him for a few hours and a few visitors came to the hospital like Grandma and Grandpa Schramm and Amanda and both my dads were there. At about 10 am my father Ken left to go get the burial plot and the casket and my mom left to go get the burial transport authorization (because baby was under 20 weeks the funeral homes do nothing. Its all up to u to handle and arrange).. So we took
Caden and put him in a cooler on ice to keep him from drying up and then just 9 hours after delivering, I was released from the hospital and started planning the burial for the next day. So on June 19, 2009 I got up and went to my mothers where
Caden was along with my mom and my father Ken and my Dad James and other family members I prepared
Caden to put him in the casket and held him a bit more and then I placed him in the casket and arranged him in the blanket and pillow and we put a family picture and a picture of the boys in the casket with him along with the very first baby blanket I ever bought even before I had Austin .
Caden was soo tiny his entire body fit on the casket pillow so we pinned the blankets to the pillow so he couldn't slide off and etc I then let those that were there say their last goodbyes and I closed the casket and my mom put ribbons on the casket to represent his family members and him we then picked up a few dozen balloons and headed to the cemetery. It was a beautiful day, a beautiful burial and then we went to Mi Rancherito for lunch and it was a good day but a sad day. Eric and I have been trying to get pregnant since we lost
Caden and we found out we were pregnant just 3 days before the day I chose to deliver
Caden had he been
full term Nov 17, 2009. Anyway, that's the
story.. Yes its long I do have pix of
Caden if u want to see them they are not on FB because it is of his body and some people would object so if u want to see the pix, send me your email and ill send them to you.
